I didnt utter a single word this morning.
Trying uber hard to hold back my tears.
It didn't work the moment Kaihwee asked me if I am alright.
Tears just rolled down uncontrollably while the national anthem was played.
I was never so emotional in school for a few months.
This was the second time.

Actually I feel better letting the tears out.
All my friends don't dare to ask me why, only one did.
Perhaps I am always emo because of the same problem, people don't really care.
At least, I cried it all out.
Though I won't sae the reason, at least I cried it out.
I hope every single drop of tears represented my heart.
The last drop of tears will be the last romance.

This time round, I will learn to be independent.
Love has to be mutual.
Lust has to be mutual too.
There is a saeing:
The greater the love is, the greater will be the apathy.
This saeing explains everything.
I have yet to show that which means my love ain't strong.
Maybe that wasn't even love and I was merely just relying on him.
A habit that time could change it probably.

It was so used-to-be him and only him that I forgot about myself.
I haven't thought of what I wanted.
I guessed now it is really time to give it a thought.
I don't need a stead but a true boyfriend.
A boyfriend that could feel my pain and I could feel his.