Friday, November 14, 200811:22 AM
Things shouldn't be judge from one angle . Things shouldn't be view from her angle only . If you were in my shoes , will you stand for your friend , or otherwise ? What about knowing that your friend had cried for her , will you ask her to shut up and get on with life ? Or get helpless and pretend nothing had happen ? I chose to vent my anger , which is a mistake initially . It caused me to lose my pillar of support but it makes me see what I can never predict . It dawned on me , I can live without boyfriend , without love , but feeling incomplete without that support , someone who everyone claims was the best ever . Can you people imagine , I'm losing that already . I'm just as sensitive to realise all this before o's but my instincts tell me that I'm thinking too much . Even someone as close to me , even someone whom I trust the most , can leave me without blinking an eye . I shouldn't be crying right now cause things which doesn't belong to me , will leave me in the end . Just like that , the friendship , all the times spent together went to drain . So I think this is the right time that we all had graduated . Cause he didnt realise , even the whole world falls on me , after one hard cry , I can forget everything . Because he cant tolerate me for blaming his love . Because he cant tolerate my wishful thinking of siding my friend . Because he dont know , how much he meant to me and thats why I told him everything . I guess , its just my bad . I shouldn't bother too much , I shouldnt give in all , I shouldn't try all ways to get you back to how we used to . Cause I know , this will never happen . I never tried losing a close friend before , but now I do . Its suck cause it is 10000 times worst than a break up . I dont know how to tell my mum too that I've lose a friend because of all the stupid things . Holidays come in handy right now , to allow me to have plenty of time to forget all this . Only to remember what that still stays within me . I'm a bossy , selfish girl I know . Cause in your eyes , I can never be better . In case you didn't realise , I'm just putting up all the smiles on my face , to make you feel that I'm okay . This is what you want I guess , for me to leave and never do anything so silly that makes you feel unneccessary . I just want to say , thank you for the friendship . Thanks for being there for me whenever I need you for the past few months . Thanks for the memories my dearest friend . and now , I will erased you off my mind .