Christmas was supposed to be a special one but I guessed , I was wrong . Sometimes I didnt want past memories to come back to me . I wished I'd magnetic power , so I could repel and attract memories as and when I wanted to . But I couldn't . Sadly . Everyone has their own story to tell , so why should I be the exception ? I do want a pair of listening ears too and could pour everything out regardless of anything . Aw , ironically , I chose to isolate my phone and appeared offline . Any mode of communication that I could get with anyone , I want to avoid . Weird ? I can't face this world with a sad and sunken heart . and I don't know how to , too . :/

I'm so weird , hahaha .

Like I want people to care for me , shower me with love and everything . On the other hand , I can't accept it wholeheartedly . Even my closest friends , sometimes I do feel like running away from them . They saw how high I went and how low I fall , spent almost everything together but I still feel that , its not enough . Not enough to fill the hole in my heart . I don't know why too . I don't know if anyone ever experience this before . Like for an instance , you tell the world you like someone and amazingly , you really did . But after a while , the feelings just faded off . Cause of every words he said which felt like a stab and everything single thing you saw just reminds you of that person . And for once , you find yourself , cold-blooded . You shut the gate to your heart and wanna try to find back the old feelings . When a duplicate of him just appeared in front of your eyes , you find yourself uncontrollably wanna get closer to that person . But purely , there wasnt any heart to heart thing . How will you judge someone like this ?

Okay , enough of my story .

MERRY CHRISTMAS and I hope I'd get well soon .

Nevertheless , ty sundram , taj and ashar for the day . (:

Perhaps my day will be worst without you guys . Haha .